“Okay really?” You are saying…is she nuts? The big bad C a dream? a gift? Honestly as far as gifts go- if I knew what was inside… I would have set that box on fire in the back 40 before opening it. BUT I had no choice in the matter, this special delivery came without a receipt and only in my size. Yes it is true, I asked for this- I just never thought it was coming in this shape and colour. Not something I would have riffled through the rack for- but none the less made for me.
Thanks to you and your love, prayers and support I have learned the greatest lesson of my life and fortified my heavy artillery with some pretty bad-ass weapons. Weapons of truth, love, light and of GOD. Thanks to your devoted, humbling and limitless encouragement I know that this is a blessing and that I am firmly held in the light.
Ohhh- I have been through hellish bouts of chemo, moments of fear and confusion and yes I still face some more no doubt. My hair fell out, my face freaked out and some days I look more alien than human but I am loved- I AM LOVED and now know- my dream is coming true.
All my life I have wanted to be a healer and to bring the light. I wanted to lift people up and be a force that drew us closer together. And so I have. Who knew in order to be a healer, I had to be sick?? Yay me! I get to witness humanity at it’s finest, I get to be on the recieving end of prayer. Through my scary plot twist, we all become more courageous and more in love with each other. Yay you!! For following through, walking your talk- reaching out and being your best self. I love you even more now. I feel I have witnessed the very essence of you- and YOU are breathtaking.
This has been a fascinating journey- too bad I had to learn it through my body instead of a great book or movie -but maybe it was so I would be forced to pay full attention to the lessons. I can’t wait to tell you all what I have learned! As I focus on recovery I am also working diligently on a book- one I think will change the rules on healing forever.
Hope you read it one day get something out of it- I sure did.
Please do share this and help me respond to the thousands of caring emails asking how I am feeling… I want everyone to know that in my heart – I am better than ever.
Be well my good friends, stay in touch- be happy